when times are hard, it’s so easy to wanna blame every force of nature for the bullshit you endure. one of the hardest things, for me at least, is when you realize you have no one to blame but yourself. YOU put yourself in this situation, no one else. YOU made this decision, no one made it for you. YOU control what happens to you, that’s it.
i’m going through this moment right now. realizing I made a situation worse by not doing what I needed to do. it sucks though, because I’m already hard on myself as it is. sometimes it makes the situation less shitty if you feel it was someone else’s fault, y’know?
sometimes it’s easier to just be like …. why?!?!